Let Your Dream Be Larger Than Your Fear

2010-11-27T14:44:00.001+08:00

Shhhhh... Just smile. =)

2010-11-26T19:19:00.005+08:00

Hello blog, Life's had been hard for me. Is it because my horoscope that I always care for ppl more than myself? Thinking of ways to leave silently although it will hurt me more. I really dunno what is this feeling already, I always thought... nah i dun wan to think le. I'm really tired.

2010-06-22T20:54:00.003+08:00

I'm back to write, almost forgotten this blog. Anyway, dun dig my history, i'm a changed person now. Cos i think this is the toughest year of my life, but i wont be taken down yet i think i gain alot of experiences more than most of you reader reading. Alot, or most of the people dunno what happen to me cos i dun think you ppl like to share unhappy things with your friend? It will only make you feel pathetic and lousy.

Lot of things happened, the one who build me up and tear me down. Its not the lies that hurt, not the truths that hurt. But, it is how close we were before that hurts. (What hurts the most - Rascal Flatts)

Ok, i said i'm a changed person so i wont write too much about things that isnt my concern now. I noticed that i had reached all the goals that i had wrote on this blog and i realised if you had dreams you need to write them down. cos some of your dreams might be forgotten and writing them down will act as a motivation. So i'm going to update more goals and dreams. I think one of the happy event tat happened this year is getting into the Director Honours List.

I think i really learnt alot this year, not that i want to brag but is really what i feel. I had learnt how to pick myself up even with such heavy weight on my shoulder. Most ppl still haven realise how lousy you will feel when you really feel so helpless that you wish to help someone so close and kin to you yet you cant do a thing because you all are still living in your small little comfort zone. Comfort zone, a very impt term i learnt. i'm going to leave my comfort zone and strive to build a bigger comfort zone that not only i can be in but all my family. People who wish to leave their comfort zone at my age you will have my respect. =)

I had been thinking about business, speaking to my sister and jiefu about what type of business can be done and which cannot be done. But NO business will fail, but its the people who fail. Its funny how we talk about reatal, location, capital, types of income.. etc. Employee life is not very good, afraid of the management and earning so little. yucks.

Investment was another thing tat i've been looking into recently but not the previous investment that i was talking about but the REAL investment. gonna learn how to invest and earn my capital this year. cant wait to use money to grow money.

Stop here ba. i'm tired, but really i have alot of things to share.

2010-04-18T03:10:00.003+08:00

Love is like an investment.

When you fell in love with somebody, its like you just invest a small sum of money.
When you start wooing the person, its like increasing the amounnt of money.
When you started to feel a sense of being love in return, its just like your investment starts to give you profits.
But when you dunno whether the other party have feelings for you anot and idling, its like the value of your stocks dint rise or drop. Causing you to be caught whether to let go or continue to hold on to it because if you sell and the stock rise, you lost your chance and if you hold on and the stock drop, you waste your time and lose your money.
When you step into the relationship, its like you use your profits and open your own company
When you all quarrel, its like the company having problem
When you all love each other, its like the company bringing in alot of profits
When you all you give birth to your childrens, its like your company is expanding with branches
But when a relationship broke off, its like the company close down and bankrupt. Maybe get back abit of money from the insurance company which is call 'memories'.
If you want to love somebody, be ready to sacrifice because sacrificing will make a relationship last. Because its just like investment, if you put in $100 for investment you will only earn alittle compared to if you put $1000 for your investment which you need to sacrifice the $900 of enjoyment.

Alot of things had happened during the holidays and today is the last day of my holidays. i think none of you noe what i'm going thru, i have alot to think about. The reason of why i went to work was different before things happened. But now the reason of me working is because i'm feeding off myself. Sometimes i will really sit on my bed thinking of why would this type of things happen. Think of work, studies, money, my family and something disturbing. It jus feel so not the same, not the same life tat i use to have. Do you know the feeling of seeing someone you noe, someone so close to you living under the same roof, changed so much in all ways? someone who use to be so strong and shelter you suddenly become someone which you need to hold on to. i woke up with tears in my eye one morning, i cant rmb what was the dream and i dun wish to rmb. i jus hope that you can understand me more.

A face without any expressions become a mask

2010-02-16T22:45:00.002+08:00

Every penny I throw in the well
Every 11:11 on the clock
Every 11.11 price tag
Every 111 number
Every shooting stars
Every turn of my pendant
Every blown out candle
Every burning joystick
Every wish i could make..

I wish for you..

But nothing seems to get through.. Goodnight My Wishes! I hope you can make it through..

2010-01-14T23:18:00.002+08:00

Back to write.. I've got back all my result after school reopen, the results are good hahas, skip the details.. And also i got my license ytd, finally.. but still need to drive under with my father to convince him..

Sian, life have been in a mess for me although it doesnt look like in the exterior.. i dun usually show too much of my expression, sometime i will just star into the blank but actually i'm thinking about the things that i'm troubled with.. hahas..

Currently i've been thinking about a major issue that i have with myself.. i think i'm a heavy pisces.. dun understand what i mean right? its about the characteristics of pisces in the horoscope.. and the particular characteristics is sensitive.. words that ppl use.. actions that ppl react?

And i think my life is really cocked up.. somethings i jus do not noe how to handle.. seriously i dun understand why.. maybe i shld jus leave those matters untouched and let it go with the wind jus like how it come with the wind.

I'm trying to be very optimistic here.. but its really killing me day by day.. Hold on to me.

2010-01-02T00:35:00.003+08:00

Back to blog le peeps.. the stupid images expired so i jus remove the images.. the background kinda suit my life.. BLANK.. lols

Worked at converse warehouse sales on the second week of my school holidays.. It was super tiring, labour work.. carry boxes to refill the wagons with stocks and everything.. met quite alot of ppl.. end lazy to write..

2009-11-26T21:55:00.003+08:00

Just wan to rant! Today, not a very good day for me, had fever outbreak after my afternoon nap! haiz, hot tempered and alot of things went through my mind.. the main thing was relationship, this year so many ppl falling out and into a relationship.. its very sad for those who fall out, ppl if you need a ear i have two and i can help.. but i only got one mouth for advice!

Congrats to those that fall in love! stay sweet forever, you all have all my blessings! especially to my class newly couple, last long long arh.. looking forward to you all de wedding like... how many years down the road. you all gotta learn how to give and take and also most importantly, TRUST.. =). Both of you, Listen up.. feel free to approach me for my ears, or else lata my ears dry off and drop how?? haha..

Talking about relationship, i heard alot of it this year. some complicated, some sweet, some GG liao.. LOL..

How i wish i can havc a partner now, but haha, none in mind yet. SMS ppl dun reply, msn ppl say busy. Anyway single life is kinda great. i know some of you ppl know that i had been randomly add girls in facebook, i admit.. nothing embarrass to hide, but i never talk to anyone of them. i'm not lik those that add liao surely mus add msn and chat and meet up. never done anything of that before, those that i sms and msn are those that i noe in real life and NOT virtually only. i'm actually kinda pure, in fact i had nv french with my all ex before.. maybe because all of my relationship lasted very short. jus a pure innocent little peck for all.. HAHA.. although i think mostly 90% of guys are perverted, those 10% mus be either hormones instability, abnormal or seriously pure(hardly), its all about respecting your partner decisions.

I had faced broke up like 6times in my life, 1st was from a sweet girl, still young can say not love actually. 2nd to 4th time was someone who really dun understand me.. 5th and 6th time was someone who i dun understand what is actually going on in her mind, yet the most memorable and most disappointed. but anyway, i moved on with my life although i once said i will wait but haha.. life actually sucks when you try to promise someone yet that person dun wan to let you fulfill it.. Anyway i could say, every break up is really painful, if you want to cry.. jus cry, if you dun cry, you will soon be in a relationship with DEPRESSION. Cry everyday also can and one day you will realise that you are tired and you will pick up yourself.. thats why one of my favourite love quote is "remember her not as someone who break you heart, but someone who teach you how to live with a broken heart". think of it that way, you actually learnt something.

Just feel like writing out my type of girl.

Height?
seriously cannot be taller den me or else she will be like a freak cos i'm already tall. not too short, jus enough to kiss me while tipping toe.. =X

Feature?
Proportion can le, i'm not a guy who go for big boobs where someguy are. actually i find it disgusting when too big. Proportion really can le..

Face?
hmm.. Presentable can le.. Beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder.. =)

Dressing?
hmmm.. no preferred la, but dun wear until very sloppy..

Make-up?
Abit will do, too think lata kiss le got powder on the lips.. i dun like girls who can make up for 30mins.. OMG, biting into my patience.. dun make up also can, natural beauty..

Smart?
Dun need to be smart, dilligent can le. i love girls with a future. i mean like, you had already planned out her future and she share with you, den you all accommodate the plans.. arent its sweet? haha

Character?
Dun scold vulgarity can le. cos me myself dun like to scold infront of girls cos it's like a disrespect although you are not scolding her. know how to think can le.

still got what ar? cant think le, my fever going up liao time to rest.. nights!

2009-11-23T23:07:00.002+08:00

I'm so bored.. hahaha.. fell in love with the song that is playing in my blog.. how i wish promises ppl made to me are not broken.. LOLs, Big Fat Hope..

Anyway school was fun, lots of happenings.. haha lazy to blog. rmb to turn up the volume and start falling in love with my blogsong..

2009-10-20T22:15:00.002+08:00

I'm so lazy to blog. if i continue to blog on ITP i will need half a day. So i decided to cut short. i met great colleagues and friend during ITP.. and also during ITP i got back my Academic results and i fail my TP. Holy cow. Got good grades for my result =), GPA grow by 0.05.. pathetic.. anyway reaching closer to my target.. HAHA.. tml den blog about school start, this blog is like lagging by dunno how many days, and my eye swell and its dam pain for me to be looking at the screen.

2009-10-18T01:12:00.002+08:00

Helloooo people.. it had been long since i last blog.. really tired and kinda can say cant be bother to blog cos everyday life seems to be the same... anyway, tml school will be starting and there wont be any holiday for me.. but nvm, i had learn alot through my attachment.

I'm actually attached to Civil Aviation Authority of Singapore (CAAS) located at Changi Airport Terminal Two Level 4. It was a very big company and on July the 1st, they had been corporatised with Changi Airport Group (CAG). When i heard that i'm attached to CAAS, i was kinda happy and scare. Happy because i'm attached to an Aerospace related industry, scared is because i learn from my UniSIM classes that CAAS is very strict in their Procedures. First day of work was really scary, partly because i'm not well with the place and i was wearing only casual smart. Went through a briefing by the ITP co-ordinator at the start, she's really friendly and funny. during the meeting i found out that the dress code was actually formal office wear but all of the SP ITP student were all wearing casual smart so i think first day was actually fine for wearing the wrong dress code.

And so after the briefing, all twelve of the ITP students were being sent to their respective division. CAAS have more den 12 divisions, from within the airport to outside the airport, i was in AI (Artificial Intelligent... HAHA JKJK, how i wish. Its actually Aviation Industry). First day of ITP, all i did was reading magazine in my office because i am required to bring my laptop. Get to know my supervisor Yvonne Kuan and my first colleague Jeffrey Poh and the first Intern Anishika.. OMG.. i was told that all the big big bosses are oversea at HongKong, so i jus sit there and read magazine, i kinda hate reading and its really hard to try to keep awake in such a cool environment. I lunched with my Yvonne and Jeffrey, they were very friendly.

Second day, i wore full formal office wear. First time wearing office wear, kinda weird and Airport is seriously COLD, OMG. second day do the same thing read magazine. lunch with same ppl. Was being asked not to be so quiet.. LOL, usually me. HAHA.. Continue in the morning, really sleepy, Third day was the change. more fun and joy.

2009-09-13T01:13:00.001+08:00

OMG.. I forget my blog.. Was busy for Exams but its over already but now come attachment.. seriously no holiday.. i'm very tired..

2009-08-23T21:22:00.000+08:00

The music is too bueatiful.

2009-08-19T21:53:00.004+08:00

My Dreams, they felt so real. I wish i never wake up from that dream, everything was like so perfect and happy. Funny things are that i still remember those words in my dream, the feelings and when i run i heard myself panting. Why did you appear in my dreams?

Anyway, i came back to reality. Feel kinda sad after realising its only a dream and forced myself to sleep again, but didnt get into any dreams already instead suffer a headache after that. When did i last had such a real dream? i think about 3months ago.. Haiz. i slept for nearly 5hours in the afternoon. And the dream felt like 2hours but science says that a dream never lasted more den 10mins. i think i'm really a dreamer, like most of the personality test says and my horoscope. A dreamer who just hoping his dreams will became reality.

stop the dreaming part liao. EXAMS coming and i haven start revision! so busy nowadays cos need to clear presentations. gonna start mugging for exams starting from now.. LOL..

i need abit of memory reorganising first.

2009-08-08T23:53:00.002+08:00

Believe it or not.... 2012 doomsday..

Watch all the parts, very interesting and quite disturbing. Not disturbing as in Paranormal stuff..
Part 3 described the alignment of the earth sun and milkyway. Do you believe it?

2009-08-05T21:43:00.002+08:00

I never tot that i was that weak.
Where are you?...

2009-07-28T22:08:00.002+08:00

I found the song tat i have been looking for.. thanks to boon kiat.. heard this song while i'm driving but dunno the title

Love this song very much..

Sorry winnie, made u cried today because of my sad songs. i tot it was nice to share cos the lyrics are meaningful.. =X. cheer up ^^. Dun give up the entire sea jus because of 1 idiot fish, haha, my lawyer lecturer expressions on social BGR cases.

2009-07-27T19:25:00.001+08:00

Amazing music
listen to the first one den to the second one. really nice and relaxing.

2009-07-25T22:44:00.002+08:00

Tired tired tired...

Ytd went to school in the morning at 8 am and school ended at 11am.. after tat went to ball with classmates from 12 to 4pm. den rush home bath den went back to school for my aerospace management at 7pm. its all about singapore law actually and the lecturer was a lawyer in one of the famous law firm. his standard of english and knowledge is really amazing cos from the way he talk and the way he brought out stories of the cases he fought. He is indeed a very good lecturer because covering such a dry topic(Law) for 3.5hrs, i did not even feel sleepy eventhough i played ball in between. Yeah, classmates were all above 21, by my judgement i think the oldest i saw is about 35yrs old?? but they were all chiongster cos each module for them caused S$1500 so being at their age they know how difficult it is to earn money so i dun think they will take the money they invested in getting the degree lightly.. and ya, lesson ended at 10.30pm, actually was intended to end at 10pm but the lecturer was just too juicy with his stories hahas. and i reach home i drop dead.

"I had jus bought a 70' Full HD LCD TV with brilliant bright contrast and billions of colours. was so excited in having my favourite bluRay movie to played on it. When i switched it on, the visual experience the TV produced was incredible, colours was at it's maximum.............. But there was no sound!" LOL.. one of the stories he told, continuing on he taught us how to sue the company of the LCD TV. this stories caused the whole lecture hall to broke into laughter, maybe reading here is not tat funny but the way he convey the stories caused laughter.

today played basketballs with my brothers, come to think of it i had played 3 days of basketball in a row. found out tat i sprain my ankle, oh man!!

den evening went to drive,BUT my slot got taken cos the booking cocked up den bo bian i walked home. HAHA.. i wasn't angry at all cos my ankle pain i also no mood to drive but den it caused me to walk thro and fro to eunos unnecessarily...

Who believe in fortune teller? I started believing already, cos it happened.. and it's happening.. and will happen..

2009-07-21T21:23:00.002+08:00

I wan to go OITP, but i no money..... ZZZZz... even if i got money i still have Uni SIM.. ZZZz.. So messed up!

2009-07-19T12:41:00.002+08:00

This year i truly understand how fragile life is cos there are so many deaths happening around me. Just a few days ago, my sister's friend mother passed away. It was really very traumatic for him cos it was a sudden death, a vessel in his mother brain just rapture and collapse. Alot of unfortunate things happen to that guy, last year he had an accident in thailand and was in critical condition but he pull through. And now with his injury or his disability almost fully recovered, his mother left him with his siblings to take care of cos he came from a single parent family.

And last week my grandmother collapse with blood clogged in her brain because she fell down. She used to be the healthier one between my grandfather. Imagine at the age of 70+ she can still go shopping in malls, tats how healthy she is. But luckily she pull through but now facing difficulty in talking.

So many misfortunate things happening around me and on me this year. Fortune teller told me tat if u think this year is bad, nxt year will be worse for me.

Sooooo gotta live life happy, happy go lucky =). LOL. went out with classssmates to ViVo to watch Hairy Potter(haha, Harry Potty) at GVmax. First time watch movie at GVmax, the seats are really comfy, there's a very soft neck cushion. The show was ok, alot of talking maybe because its adapted from a book. LOL. Andy watch until sleep.

Take care peoples

2009-07-14T21:14:00.002+08:00

A question going out to all my dear readers! When will you see a heartless man cry?

Answer will be at the end of the post. Actually i wanted to write about a funny incident of a bird yesterday but i do no have the time because i am very busy gathering and sorting out info for my CRS essay. Only got less den 3 hours of sleep last night, that's how busy i am.... Lets continue with the funny bird, first time in my whole life i saw a bird "long biar"(bang wall) right in front of me. Actually not bang wall la, is bang the railings beside those big drains. I was taking my standard route to the MRT station in the morning to go to school. I need to walk pass this long stretch of pavement beside a big drain and this was where the incident occur. With my backphone on, i did not heard anything from the surround, then suddenly this bird came decending down at high speed which i estimated it will high me if i continue walking so i stop immediately to let it cross my path. The bird zoomed passed directly right in front of me and was trying to penetrate the small gaps on the railings but it was no where near in between the gap. AND IT bang into the railings, can feel its pain through the impact, and fell to the ground. At first i though the bird went into unconcious state but after a few seconds it got back on it's feet and jump into the drain... It was really my first time seeing a bird bang into something cos usually is bird got bang by moving objects.

Recieve my timetable for my SIM le. I have lesson of Aerospace Management on every friday from 7pm to 10pm at UNI SIM. Really bad timing, cos usually when i reach home i dun feel like going out again. My new classlist is also out, so many foreigners name and I gotta remeber another admin number!! Dunno how will life be there? will it be as relax as poly? haha. It's there for me to find out. I think starting will be a little stress cos having to study poly and uni sim concurrently is kinda new, hope i will soon adapt to it.

AHH.. really tired, gotta read up more for OOPs project. Programming is so fun. take care peeps!
OH YA.. the answer to the question "When will u see a heartless man cry?" is when he got back his HEART.

2009-07-07T19:51:00.004+08:00

School reopen liao, cannot enjoy sleeping till the sun wake me up. So tiredLOL School reopen, the first thing is we get back our MST results. i really have no comment, maybe for OOP have. ZZZ.

Object Oriented Programming: 84
Engineering maths: 85
Aircraft Electrical Fundamentals: 93
Micro controller: 89
Servomechanism and Electronics: 81

OOP got trick by MCQ, maybe was too careless dint read properly the question. Others all really no comment, gotta strive harder for my the semester exam. Hopefully can hit 4.0GPA for this semester. Gonna be chiongster, chiong study, after study chiong earn money, after earn money chiong enjoyment. Life is short and unpredictable. This year i really learnt how fragile lives is, cherish those tat care and concern for u. So i'm gonna live my life to the fullest cos i dunno when i will die. LOL. So i will be strong and live at my fullest until i wear out. Same go for those who are reading.

One person once told me, die oso mus die with glory or at least have a good impression in other people mind. Like a scene in "The Ghost of Girlfriend Past", you dun wan to have only 1 ppl turning up to send u off ur last journey. And life is all about learning moral values and knowledge. So gotta pick up learning by urself. My parents dint ask me to study, dint take a knife and force me to study. i got my freedom of choosing whether to go to school anot everyday cos really its up to my decision. My mother dun even know how Poly grading system works and my Father dun even know what i'm studying. LOL.

One thing in my life is i will not abandon my parents, although my childhood was living in quite a poor environment. My mother told me, when i was like 6months old, when baby was able to consume solid food, i was only fed with steam fish. 18 years back, fishes are expensive, not those drain fish but those fishes tat are rich in Omega__? lol. Maybe tats why some things i jus cant forget. alot of childhood stories... some are meant to be kept deep down inside unless you are someone who is special. LOL. I wan to bright a bring future for my sons and daughters so they will lead a better life than me. HAHA. maybe if i'm really successful, i can start enterprising for my descendants, grandchild, great grandchild so they will be free flow of money through earning moneys through employee. But enterprising isnt in my view now, now i only wan to earn money with money. HAHA. meaning investment.

Very tired, dun wan to write le cos maybe i think too far......... ADDED the songs that i always listen to to my PLAYLIST!!

2009-07-03T22:05:00.002+08:00

MST finally finished... really tired now, cos right after ytd paper stayed in school study till 11pm den trained home, bath... sleep. Today 530am wake up study den go school at 8am. continue study till 1030am and go for paper.. No comment for all the papers, let the results speak for me.

Funny thing is, i feel very tired but i dun wan to sleep. finish paper at 12pm, den eat in school. was intending to play pool with BK and andy in school after eating but the table all booked den.... go home. LOL.. reached home first thing, ON computer den go and bath LOL.. Watched movie at home, was blasting the sound =X.. watched PPP=Princess Protection Programme. HAHA. tml watching Table For Three, browsed through the show jus now but was not in the moode in watching, so decided to leave it for tml.

After finish watching movie i browsed through youtubes for the song BK sing in the morning. Super sad song. kinda remember the song but dunno where i heard it from. in the morning suddenly feel like going K. So can sing all the stress away. LOL. Yeah, played games, offline games. the funny part was i was playing halfway den got one unknown number call me den i very dulan cos the call interrupt my game and is an unknown number so i pick up and phone and i "HELLO!!!?".. i thought ppl call wrong number ma so i abit rude, cos i receive before calls looking for dogs, MRT int, and takeaways from coffeeshop. But the call turn out to be the Director of SIM. LOL...

Finally i did workout today, cos for the past few daysssssss i have been studying den i dun wan to finish workout den very tired den study. HAHA.. i wanna train shoulder but i think will take quick a long time for the shape to form. HOT HOT. Dwight Howard shoulder is IMBA.

Oh ya, the song. Its a nice MV but i dun like the ending.

2009-06-29T21:05:00.002+08:00

Guarding against complacency.

2009-06-28T23:08:00.003+08:00

Thank You to my friends, my buddies and my brothers to pick me up when i fall. Sorry i show the ugliest sight of me and from today on i will walk down the path of the road i lay for myself bravely.

怎麼隱藏我的悲傷
失去妳的地方
妳的髮香散的匆忙
我已經跟不上

閉上眼睛還能看見
妳離去的痕跡
在月光下一直找尋
那想念的身影

如果說分手是苦痛的起點
那在終點之前我願意再愛一遍
想要對妳說的不敢說的愛
會不會有人可以明白

我會發著呆然後忘記妳
接著緊緊閉上眼
想著那一天會有人代替
讓我不再想念妳
我會發著呆然後微微笑
接著緊緊閉上眼
又想了一遍妳溫柔的臉
在我忘記之前

心裡的眼淚
模糊了視線
妳已快看不見

What a nice song.. Tml having TST, no more monkey business liao. All the best to my classmates!

2009-06-25T21:02:00.002+08:00

Having exams next week.. so fast! Gotta score gotta score gotta score.
Monday-Object-orientated Programming
Tuesday-Engineering Maths
Wednesday-Aircraft Electronics Fundamentals
Thursday-Micro-controller
Friday-Servomechanism and Electronics

Fierce! Was studying most of the time today.

Ytd went to SIM alone to pay my school fees, and the bus was friggin cold and its raining. forgot to bring my jacket cos i rushed out. haha. I wrote a piece of notes so tat i could memorise some formulas on the bus but when i try to memorise i cant. i cant read on moving vehicles, same goes for psp, tats y i sell my psp tat time. ending up listening to music and catching their lyrics for the 1hr 15mins journey there. omg, gonna suffer the long journey beginning from 3th week of july. gonna start hardcore studying.

Life revolved around studying, eating, sleeping, computer.. Maybe and should get back to my hobby, earn money to modify my desktop. i wan to buy HD4870X2, hot graphic card at S$700 (if the price haven drop). In additional i still need to change my PSU if not cannot power up that sweeeeeeeeeeet card with dual GPU and 2G VRAM. extreme graphics rocks, gaming at highest resolution, details, anti-liasing. Moving images without any zig zag lines at the curve. Jus dreaming..... i dun have time to play so what for buy such good graphic. dream dream dream SZ.

I'm a little short tempered nowadays, maybe was about the things that had been happening and the irritation of my nephew. not say i'm cruel, but my nephew keep asking me to carry him but the consequences of carry him is he dun wan to come down and the next time he see u he ask u carry him again. So today, i actually sit and see him cry for 15mins? no choice, u not in good mood i oso not in good mood. i got pissed off with ppl who i really do not wish to see. i feel i'm getting more and more straightforward with words and attitude.

Have you people ever believe in fortune telling? gotta amazed by the person who can read off ur personality just by looking at your face and chinese name? meaning part of ur life had already been set with the name given to you? Believe tat you are brought to this world for a meaning?

Just believe in yourself, believe that you can do it. Believe in the supports and hopes from people that care for you and you will excel. When you excel, be glad that you did it, be glad tat you achieve it with your own hand, something that you can be proud of.

2009-06-23T17:02:00.001+08:00

Why?

2009-06-21T09:55:00.002+08:00

Ytd went to watch YL and ZJ match, went alone at the starting. First quarter was close, but after the game went into 2nd quarter, the power different started to become obvious. Anyway they won, haha. Highlight of the game was one of ZJ rejection, their team was having block party. LOL..

Today is my nephew first month, haha. He got shaved already, so bald. LOL. busy busy.

A song i heard from ivan mp3. A meaningful yet meaningless love song.

Deep and Meaningless
I, I don't know why I miss you so much
Yeah I, I don't know why I still feel your touch
You, you left me feeling high and dry
With nothing, nothing but the question why

Yeah you, I guess you had another direction
And leaving me with nothing but a dead connection

If you call me today
I'll say that I'm fine
But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice
It's just a lie
You knew what you had
You still walked away leaving me in this mess
My love for you is deep and meaningless

You, you knew what you were doing to me
And I, I guess I was too blind to see
Well you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad
But I'd do it again to relive what we had
(Damn that's sad)

There are many things left to remind me
Of a love that I just can't leave behind me

2009-06-20T13:59:00.002+08:00

OMG.. i cant scold vulgarity.. dun wan to dirty my blog. I stop the commotion yet you provoke me, insult my father right in front of me, how daring. luckily your wife came out and you hide behind her or else i think you will be in hospital already, cos i dun beat siao char bor, i scare she bite me like mad dog. but still in the end u hide behind your wife like u always do, worse, stand behind your wife and ask " ni hen you dan shi bu shi?". HAHAHAHA stop kidding with me. Oh please! if wo mei you dan den i wont be standing in front talking to your brother, i wont be the one stopping the fight. not like you throughout the whole thing hiding behind your wife. haha the funny thing is he say "ni hen you dan shi ma? cong zhe li tiao xia qu la". i cant imagine something like this come out from an adult mouth. and and... to all office ppl, they say office ppl wont come out to talk with ppl to solve commotion. WTF logic is this? office ppl not human ar? meaning he dun have the intention to solve problems? or he really no balls? i think really no balls. really hate guys who solve problems through their wife, xiao bai lian. i dun care ur whole family, brothers, mother, siblings or any other relative living on the same block but if you lie a single touch on my family in any means, i wont let you off.

2009-06-19T00:56:00.003+08:00

Boring day today.. talk about YTD, I had a conversation with a guy that is earning S$5k to S$10k a month at the age of 20 working as network marketing. cool?? and network marking is only a freelance job and his money keep flowing in. His words were very inspiring and logical. He told me, at first he was told by all his friends and families about network marketing is a scam and illegal but he dint believe them. He told me "dun let one person who did not try network marketing condemn ur feelings toward it".. and he said "one way to be unique is to go against the crowd". I dun mind giving it a try la, cos no harm, no need to buy their products first den sell so i'm not at the losing end. went for training and gain knowledge of how to promote and meet client, but still a long way to go for me. HAHA. BUT i will still prioritise my study at top top top. hmmmmmm. abit depress today, heartpain, kiss my 35k bye bye..

anyway, this is NVIDIA TEGRA APX 2600

and the video review.

It's very awesome, its using the new Tegra technology at ultra low power comsumption and it can have music playback for 25days till battery flat. imagine u are one who dun use much of ur phone and u only need to charge u phone once 2 months. LOL. and it can stream multiple HD video at 720p. and another features, it's camera is up to 12megapixels. and it run like a notebook with mutliple boot system. Cant find it retail price, but should be very very exp cos Nvidia dint fully launch the Tegra technology, tink only launching this year and soon they will be releasing this technology to laptops but will surely cause the price of laptop to jerk up.. HAHA.. nothing much... i'm bored...

Driving

2009-06-15T21:42:00.003+08:00

Today i have driving lesson, haha, so fun driving. Nearly langga taxi, everytime is taxi, they think they own the whole road from small road jus speed into major road. Anyway learnt balancing on uphill, still gotta practice more. if taking up auto dun need to care about balancing and alot of things. After driving, met Ivan den go to Grand Hyatt to eat. HAHAHA eat my head! Went there to pursue my pay! drag 2 months liao still haven pay me, what a good admin efficiency for a 5 stars hotel? den slack, wander around orchard.

Oh.. bought my laptop mouse, identical as the one tat was spoilt by my nephew. Lapmate. and we saw a LCD TV, full HD, 103".. guess the price.... HAHA.. S$100,588.00. i noe someone kind enough to give it to me as my birthday present but i need to PRAY hard enough hope tat "he" heard me. Ends here, going to study liao.

A Very Nice Song And MV

2009-06-14T23:50:00.003+08:00

Oh crap. What language is blog template written in? haha. Why isnt it in C++? anyway had lots of problem with the template that i nearly quit halfway when creating this blog. Decided to start blogging because i wan to share my boredom (hehe) with you people. This week is packed, actually it will be more packed. Was suppose to be working at IT show but den last min say no slot, bloody fag. Anyway then my old employer asked me to work for him at IT show too, but i reject him because very sian. HAHA. Lets see what happened this week.

Monday.
Met BK at 5pm at bugis to burn time den head down to kampong ubi CC to watch YL and ZJ match. They played well. After that dinner and went home.

Tuesday.
Went out with buddy and buddy to simalu to kan xiang after tat head down to bishan den to T1 den home.

Wednesday.
Went to ball at tampines with JYSS and Springfield frens, long time no see.. haha.. finish balling we went to eat, and den 5 person squeeze 1 cab home, luckily all got change clothes or else i tink the driver will faint. shld have sleep when i reach home but i dint. went to play pool in the evening den ton at YL house tat day. i was half dead there. slept at 4am

Thurday.
Went home and bath, den meet BK, andy, winnie, WL (late like fag). was intending to watch 2pm movie but we wait for ML to knockoff at 4pm. In the mean time we were walking from PS to cineleisure den back. We watched Ghost of Girlfriend Past, a wonderful show, very funny. Except got Ginas sit beside me, he like never see before scenes of woman in lingeries keep making noise, kids nowadays... Haiz

Friday.
Pool with YL, Ivan and HC in the evening.. Eh? where ZJ ar? HAHA. After pool went home awhile den went out to sing K with the same group of ppl but now got ZJ. sing until 2am, super high there. 2am we walk from bedok to bedok dunno where wait for midnight bus home. reach home was about 4am liao, super tired.

Saturday.
Went to NUM to buy tee shirt with brothers, after tat went to watch Terence match.

Sunday.
BORED..... evening went to watch YL and ZJ match. eh i forget i went myself or did i meet somebody? nvm bout tat, met ivan there. great match, they owned their opponent like men vs boys. LOL. dinner den home, and now writing this post. LOL

Today start cannot go out too much liao, spent alot last week and need to study liao. Really going to start studying and keep myself occupied, haha cos i scare i breakdown.

sometime i wish my memories are not so good